Hey my Brethren. . . I suppose this is the kind of stuff one openly shares with his/her close family, well I have my Union brethren of which I have worked with many over the years off and on and certainly do not keep in contact with many except the ones I an working for and with. The second and of which some are in both categories are my fishing ppl face to face and online. . . you reading already seem to care to at least read this post ( The Hardest one I have ever written) and I pray to god you never have to live this! The reason I decided to post a thread is because I believe. . . I believe when a body (group) of ppl seeking the same thing makes a difference, I believe in the holy spirit of which we are all a piece believe it yourself or not, I also believe fish need to be table fare along with all the other animals that are tasty and cant reach to wipe there own ass! I believe in a God that believes we should LIVE, use not abuse the planets resources. I also believe we should support what we believe in and moreso each other for the reason if not that who are we? We are never alone for we all breath the same air. (although the air up here a bit cleaner!) Alrighty then enough for those of you reading that don't know me personally. My wife is 45 y/o and had a colonoscopy removing 4 polyps of which were pre-cancerous, but the one in her rectum was cancer! We are not broke, we live comfortably I am a union Ironworker the Wife an Animal Trainer for the Movie industry and is well known in her field as our wolf/Dog "Rugby" had to just be put down after a severe stroke. I am sure you have seen him in movies commercials or on TV. Her Mother died some 20 years ago from a brain tumor and her 3 sisters have had bouts with cancer of different type. One with Hodgkin's Lymphoma in the hospital as this is being written. None the Less my wife Eadie has Stage one T2 Colon Cancer, The cancer is so close to all the things that allow our person to "Shit" ourselves that on Sept 4th (my Bday) In Chicago she will have her rectum removed with hopes of sparing her sphincter muscle. If everything works the way the doctors plan she'll only have a bag for 6 weeks and be able to resume semi regular life. Cancer Free of course. I am not young, most close friends call me the Old Guy with Kids, I have a 14y/o that lives with her mother back east and I have a 4 1/2 y/o and a 2 1/2 y/o that live here of course, all girls. The biggest thing that scares the shit out of me is being alone with them, when they are grown more. . . . what the hell I suppose we take what comes, I suppose this would be an awesome life if each of us could trace/draw out what is coming and how we deal with it. . . . I suppose by posting this I am letting go of what has been building up since we found out about it and more so support, physically and emotionally. We are never alone my friends and supporting each other no matter how it is always makes a difference! I however had my wifey pre read and place corrections so I am not the man i think she is Thanks for Reading! Feel free to PM me with whatever you got even if its "you fucking cry baby" I am not a small man nor huge I take what I deal out. Hope to share the rail with you one day one my charters your boat or you charter. Life is good with good friends!